I have got an invite from Almighty, Jeevan. God wants me to audit his accounts & also he is missing me there. I told I will miss Jeevan & my family but…………. Hmmmm
Jeev, listen to me don’t cry & don’t feel happy that the Devil is no more going to torcher you..
Due to frequent headache & seizures.. Nafrin & I went to consult doctor. I was asked to undergo certain scans/tests Jeevan….I was literally worried about the bills, lucky I had the office insurance……
You know Jeevan, my brainless BRAIN has got the cutest disease.. “Brain Tumour” I was dumbstruck!! A smile arose on my lips, I bit my lip, my legs were trembling, eyes were partially floating. I wanted to meet dad, mom and chikku. My hands wanted to rest in yours. Doctors were explaining in detail and my heart was craving for you all. I wanted to survive. I had hopes because I am in the sophisticated Country…Tried my best to cope but doesn’t look like I am going to win my love. Losing the battle and started counting my days…
It’s too late Jeevan!! May be if I had stayed with my parents with their love and timely care I would have made wonders!! You remember I used to tell about my headache when I was in India?? That’s the starting point. Dolo and Cetirizine is not enough, Jeevan. My assumptions and ignorance killed me. What did I gain Jeevan?? PG food, working like machines,stress..uff!! I had to be away from our village, parents, chikku just because of job, money..… Today I regret………... I can’t get back my life….
Doctors have no hopes Jeeva, they have said how I would be in the coming days before hitting those worst days I thought of keeping this gift ready for you. Nafrin knows when to give this to you.
I don’t want to increase the hospital bill for no benefit of mine. I don’t want to meet my parents and chikku like a dead soul neither I want to die here. I want to meet you before I die but I don’t dare to do so, Jeevan. I don’t want you to see me like a dead soul, doctors told my eardrums will not die until I die hahha this is funny right..I liked it. Still I don’t want to meet you I can’t hear my soul crying.
I spoke to dad….I told I am coming back to India as I am not able to adjust to the weather he was more than happy to welcome me Jeevan. My cousin said she will accompany me to India. I don’t know how I will console mom and dad…But I will try my best. Whenever you go to our native to meet your grandparents please meet my parents. Guide chikku…I feel like I am living her as destitute.
………………………………………………………. Hey wait I am not yet done…
I thought to keep everything away from you, pretend that I don’t love you anymore but I can’t betray our LOVE and friendship, Jeevan.
Jeevan, I want to cry but I am your bold love Vidya..I won’t. I am feeling suffocated, unable to swallow the pain………I am………….am done with my life. I am not worried about death, Jeevan….if not today definitely one day….may be its too early but I am worried about my parents, chikku and I want to live with you for few years at…………….
Jeevan, take care of yourself. Dream High, Aim high but make sure you don’t kill yourself. Money, achievements are important but there is a limit, we are not iron made Jeevan..Dolo & cetirizine is a temporary solution.
Don’t worry about me. I am all done…I don’t want to be an obstacle for your life Jeevan. You have long way to go. I know you will do anything to stay with me but it would be crap idea Jeev and all your hard work would go in vain. Don’t sulk…I know you won’t, you are the most practical person whom I have met and one of the best thing happened in my life.
My soul will not rest until I know my Jeevan has got settled in his life. I know you will do this for me and you have to do it for me. I will talk to god and pray for you Jeevan. Take care my love.
I can’t say anything more………….I miss your warm hug.
Tons of kisses & Loads of love. Your love Vidya.
“Friends I tried to be modest. I really didn’t want to end it sad but this is the truth. Bitter Truth!!
We start caring when it’s too late. why don’t we care when it’s too early. Am I sounding funny??? Fact is even little late is tooo late when it comes to health, we can never be ignorant of our health.” Take Care!!
Don’t worry about Jeevan and Vidya they will meet us soon.
Before releasing your fist please punch your valuable thoughts.
Thank you.
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